And so it begins…
Well, the school year’s about to start and that means my life is about to pick up again. My musings on the summer and the coming year after the jump. Be warned, it’s a fairly negative post.
So overall, I give summer a rating of bleh. Yeah, not particuarly good, but not bad enough to warrent a bad rating either. I’ve just felt I’ve been in limbo since I graduated. I’ve been done with McCallie and dealing with the seperation from those guys but I don’t really have anything big to look forward to for Tech. Living away from home? Been there, done that farther away. Hard classes? That’s what they all say and I’ve yet to have a class that I’ve taken from beginning to end and struggled with. New things? I’m not really doing anything different, just the normal Mock Trial, Band, MUN stuff.
The summer itself didn’t really help much at all. Nothing incredibly exciting happened other than my grandmother dying, which wasn’t fun at all. My family went to Orlando without my sister since she was in Europe and that whole week felt beyond stagnant. It’s a really bad thing when one goes on autopilot in Orlando and doesn’t feel much wonder at all. I worked at Target, made some money, and pretty much killed my brain in the process. I didn’t really hang out with friends that much; I know I could have made more of an effort.
No, the big thing I did this summer was zone out on my computer, watching videos or reading blogs or reading the Times. That is not healthy at all. For once in my life, I had nothing pressing due. No papers, no activities, no big long absenses from home, just work. And I wasted it all. I tell myself that this was a transition summer, and while that is true, it’s no excuse. I had two whole months to better myself and I came out only monetarily richer than when I went in.
It doesn’t help that my entire family joined in the apathy. I feel like we’re so apart, draw to our five seperate computers. My mom is always working on some band/pta thing, my sister is doing who-knows-what in her room, my brother just watches tv all day and complains bitterly when he’s dragged out, and my dad works and when he gets home he seems to be on the computer, too. I’m not blaming anyone for this, it’s something wrong with my whole family and I’m as much to blame for it as anyone. My guess is that it will work it self out as we all mature, but it better work itself out quickly. I couldn’t stand it this summer.
I guess that’s all behind me now. Tomorrow I start anew at Georgia Tech. I have some easy classes so I should be able to feel things out pretty well in this first semester. Goals? I have a few I guess:
- Have a 4.0 (I’m hopeful)
- Win some award if there’s an invitational for Mock Trial (Depends on the level of competition in college)
- Rush (While it may be uncomfortable, it shouldn’t be too bad)
- Do something social at least once per week (This’ll be the tough one. It all goes back to that apathy thing. If I can manage this, I’ll be in good shape)
- Have something cool to do over winter break (I really don’t want to go back to Target)
Well, I need to get up extra early tomorrow to begin my college odyssey. To my fellow freshmen, good luck! And here’s to the start of a good year.
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